The bar was packed and
struck with a chilled silence as the television played news of the latest
chapter in the Great American Tragedy. A
High School in Boulder , Colorado
Crime
Scene – Do Not Cross.
Adding volume to the
moving imagery the bartender stands with his arms folded as all eyes fall on
the boob tube; the first on the scene dances expertly with rhetoric at a time
when all that’s required is the cold hard facts; that sixteen boys and girls
would never reach their wedding days.
‘Two students are believed to have entered the cafeteria
at 1:05PM today with duffle bags
of automatic weapons and opened fired on their peers and teachers.’
The cameraman lingers on the boundaries of the yellow
line that flickers harmlessly in the wind as black bag after black bag is
wheeled out to the sudden repetitive flash of light as photographer after
photographer grabs image after image as though it’s some sort of grotesque
fashion show. Kid, kid, you with only half a head…who are you wearing? Forever Twenty-One and Smith & Weston! With the bodies paraded by the world’s press,
the ritualistic dive into recrimination begins.
Who’s to blame? What went
wrong? How could this happen? This and
in America Hollywood
‘No, no,
that’s not it,’ protests a parent ‘we need better control over firearms.’
‘But
wouldn’t America
I scoffed
supping down on my beer turning to my pal George and wondered how cinema was to blame. How cinema was more responsible for the
deaths of children than the bullets that shattered their skulls and painted the
cafeteria with their brains. How someone
can shoot up a High School, walk to the sidewalk, crack open a Coors Light
before eating the shell and WalMart will ban beer. Meanwhile the price of automatic rounds go
through the roof as demand swells and middle America prepares to shoot on sight
anyone that so much as blinks their direction, especially if they’re of colour.
Ban cinema,
ban art, ban Coors Light, photography, rap music, and images of a sexual
nature. Showing a man’s head exploding
in all its visceral crimson detail is fine but no love making on screen please, that will corrupt our youth. A handgun is fine fully loaded and pumping
out hot tooth after hot tooth but a loaded penis hand pumped to expulsion is
wrong. We deal in death, not life Hollywood
‘You know,’ harped a shaven headed man ‘if you hate America
‘What?’
‘You heard, I love my country. I fought for my country’s freedom and I won’t
sit here and listen to some foreigner talk shit about her.’ getting to his
feet.
‘Oh I’m sorry,’ I spat ‘I didn’t realise your country was
under threat of invasion. I’m very glad
you love your country, I love your country too but this,’ pointing to the television set ‘this is not what was meant by the right to bear arms.’
‘I don’t have to listen to this in my own god-damn
country!’ he shouted.
‘Ok, calm it down.’ advised the barman, reaching under
the counter.
‘So what? Is
freedom of speech more or less important to you than the right of someone to
cull an entire graduating class because it’s easier for him to buy a gun than
it is for him to buy a beer?’
‘Freedom of speech?’ he hissed ‘What about my freedom to
whoop your ass, pal?’
‘Which amendment is that again? I forget.’
It gets a laugh out of George and angers the skin head
enough that he charges across the bar stopping inches from my face as I bolt to
my feet. The tattoo on his arm states
he’s USMC and I realise that there
are two ways to deal with this put up and shut up but the beer has loosened the
hinges on my mouth a little too much so we march outside as the bar empties
eager to witness more scenes of unnecessary violence. How many of them would tear themselves away
from their seats if we were taking to the pavement to fuck each other
senseless? That’s the fact of the
matter, death sells while love sits gathering dust on the shelves before it’s
dumped into the bargain bucket world of the Rom-Com.
Rolling his sleeves up he says ‘Last chance mister, take
it back and you can walk.’
‘Fuck you, and fuck Charlton Heston. I hope Satan’s ass-raping him as we speak
while Hitler puds his throat good and raw.’
His fist shot out like a cobra making contact with my
nose twice before I could even get my dukes up.
I was reeling and the Marine was already moving in for the kill. He went for another but I ducked him and
barrelled into his chest sending us both to the ground. I clocked him once, twice, then he buried a
knee to my abdomen knocking the air from my tank. Falling off him I saw a quick burst as he
leapt to his feet before helping me to mine.
He caught me twice more in the gut and my legs gave out. Holding me in the air like a doll with its
strings cut he put the head to me before spinning me round by the tee collar
and releasing me into the night. I
landed hard, the circle closed around him as one or two locals congratulated
him on dealing with that big mouth. I came charging at him again and made contact
with the side of his face with a rock-handed left and again which put him off
balance. As I grabbed him by the throat
he broke the hold and began pounding my face until the lights reset themselves
and I woke on the ground.
He was back in the bar on his stool drinking a beer out
of the side of his mouth. Getting to my feet
I lifted a brick and drove it into the windscreen of his pick-up truck. Turning his head, the beer still tightly
pressed to his lips he watched in amazement as I lift the brick again and
thrust it down caving the screen in, little white cubes of glass exploding into
the night air. Slamming his beer down he
raced towards me, his fists primed and ready to go again. I noticed the news cycle had begun again as
the bodies were being wheeled out on screen; girl with the hole in her throat, who are you wearing? Sub-machine gun!
He hit me harder than a semi-truck, I dug my fingers into
his eyes and we both went to ground, spewing blood and saliva as our bodies
tangled around one another in a gymnastic display of hatred. Punch, punch, punch went his loaded knuckles
before eventually three men pulled him from my bones, convinced as they were
that he would kill me.
‘Jesus Christ Jeremy, I think you’ve killed him!’ screamed
a brunette.
‘Oh good,’ I gargled ‘I got my balls rolled by someone
called Jeremy, Christ.’
‘I’m so sorry,’ she cried, reaching down to assist me ‘my
brother is a fucking asshole.’
‘It’s fine, really.
He hits like a girl.’
‘Fuck kid,’ squirmed George ‘your god-damn face!’
‘Where do you live?’ she asked. ‘Let me take you home.’
Carrying me back to the motel Lucy set me on the edge of
the bed before heading to the front counter for the first aid kit. She cleaned my face up while I smoked a
cigarette and when the bleeding had stopped and all the wounds were tended to,
she stripped down to her bra as I had covered her floral blouse in a healthy
dollop of my heme. Running the warm
water for her I let Lucy grab a shower as I laid out a fresh white tee for her
and stuck a virginal sheet of paper in the typer. I needed to get it down while it was still
fresh, still raw, still bloody and happening.
When she emerged from the bathroom her hair had curled
from the moisture and she stood naked before me. Big round hips, large full breasts and areola
like pinky-brown saucers. A playful
little patch of bush sat looking at me in an otherwise trimmed garden.
‘I couldn’t find a towel.’ she said, crossing the room
taking me by the hand and leading me back to the bed.
My body was broken so she did all the work. Riding my pole she fucked me for all I was
worth, for all the pain and suffering in the world before I filled her up with
my warm white.
After breakfast I met
up with George and gave him the new pages for the movie we were working
on. Examining my face he asked why I’d
bother to fuck with a psycho pistol-happy bastard like Jeremy.
‘The world’s gone wrong,’ I said ‘sooner or later someone
he loves will end up on the wrong end of one of those Boulder
‘You really are an asshole.’ George said smiling and I
smiled too because I already knew that.
